I just can't believe this year is coming to a close!! It has gone by so fast!! Now that the holidays are behind me, I am starting to think of all my new year's "resolutions" I want to make for this coming year. Usually I don't have any, but there are a few things I want to work on this year. I want to blog more. About anything. Life goes by so fast, and there are so many memories we are making each day, I don't want to forget anything! I want to make photo albums. I have so many pictures in a huge tote, I would love to just have a photo book to pull out and look at my pictures instead of flipping through each one. I want to be less uptight. I feel like anytime things get just a little out of control I start worrying. How am I going to get this done? I can't do it all!!! that's right, I can't. and I need to focus on what's important and take things one thing at a time. I want to lose weight, and even more importantly, be healthy for myself and my kids. For so many years I have struggles with this, with trying to reach goals, only to give up over time and feel bad about it, bad about myself. Then I try again, only to give up...it's turned into years of a vicious cycle. and i feel i am totally DONE!! I just want to do it and feel proud of myself everyday that I AM doing it!!
I know it's going to take time, and I have to take it one thing at a time. I've learned that about me. Baby steps, not bombardment of everything at once.
So before I move on to next year already, Im feeling the need to reflect on what's been happening the past few months.
Landen has started Gymboree, and he is doing so well with it! He participates in the activities the teacher has the kids do, he dances with everyone, he has a blast!! It's so interesting to see his reaction to it, and when Vivie was in that same class at his age, maybe even older, she wanted NOTHING to do with any of the activities, songs, etc. He is so much more outgoing then her. But I think it's a great balance. She calms him down and he helps bring her out of her shell. She has been doing so much better this year in preschool!! I feel so great about holding her back just one more year before kindergarten. She loves school, remembers all her classmates names, enjoys playdates with them and gets involved, and she's talking about how she's excited to start kindergarten. The one thing they have in common though is their sensitivity to sounds. Vivian has gotten much better, and knows to cover her ears if things are or might be too loud. But Landen is having a hard time, especially with public restrooms. It's at the point where if he knows we are going in, he does not want to. He cries and tell me "NO MAMA!" "I NO WAN IT!" poor baby :-( I hope its a phase, but it's taken Viv this long to get better on handling the sounds. I wonder if I should bite the bullet and have them evaluated??
We have been going to T or C more and more, now that our place is set up really nice. It's so great to get away from the city and relax. We also got a new travel trailer and we can't wait to use it this spring and summer!!! We plan on taking it to San Diego and camping on the beach for the reunion this year. it's going to be awesome!!!
So many things to look forward too this year!! I feel really good about things, and most of all just want to enjoy my life and my kids...ups and downs :-)
