I can see clearly now!!

So everyone...I just had to share this because it has already made such an impact on my life...and I can't imagine how it could get any better like they say it will...I got lasik surgery!!  Me and Chris have been talking about doing it for a long time but have not been able to afford it.  Not gonna lie...it aint cheap!!  But the benefits of it are seriously priceless for us.  I know many people are skeptics and have probably heard bad things about it.  I was one of them and was very VERY nervous about getting it done.  What if I went blind??  What if it doesn't even work??  I had to believe in my doctor, Dr. Bernisky, that when he said I was an eligable candidate that it would work.   There are many conditions with the eye where lasik would not work, but you would not believe all the other procedures they can do if lasik is not for you.  It's really so simple too...

Me and Chris went in for a free consultation on Tuesday (may.24)  it was about an hour and a half, but they checked EVERYTHING!!  how deep your lenses are, the circumfrence of your eye, they test your vision like 20 times (well...it seemed like it anyway but they did alot!  they dialate your eyes to look inside...it was alot of tests but well worth it.  They were able to get us in the NEXT day after determining we were able to do it.  I was super surprised...i didn't think it would happen so fast!!  So the next morning me and Chris went in, they explained the procedure, got us ready and away we went!! It seriously took a total of 5 mins for BOTH eyes!!  when they walked me out of the operating room and I rested for a few minutes, I decided to open my eyes and see what I could see...and it was EVERYTHING!!  without the aid of glasses or contacts!!  I got all teary eyed I just couldn't believe it!!  All they require afterwards is to put drops in your eyes to keep them moist, for an antibiotic, and a steriod.  also to sleep or keep your eyes closed for 2-6 hours, and NO RUBBING YOUR EYES!!  they cut the top flap of your eye and put it back in place, but it takes only 2 weeks for it to be completely healed.  amazing.  My vision has just gotten better and better.  All it feels like is there is dirt in your eyes, and that feeling is virtually gone today. 

I was so excited to open my eyes this morning and see eveything right away...the sunlight through the curtains, what time it was, to peek at my sweet boy as he slept...no reaching for my glasses to see or to get 2 inches from his face just to make out his features.  It was pure bliss to be sitting on the couch with my cup of coffee and to look down the hall and see my sweet pea walking down towards me, rubbing the sleepies from her eyes. 

Its already so wonderful and undescribable.  I can't wait to SEE (literally) all that is in store.

My kiddies better stop growing!!

So both my kids had an appointment just this past Monday (may 9)  Poor things had to get a series of shots.  I was expecting Landen's shots, but I had NO IDEA Viv need 4!!!  she was so brave, I was proud of her.  She cried, but bounced right back and was chasing butterflies by the afternoon.  Now for the stats...drumroll please....hahahahaha!!

Landen is 15 lbs...YES 15!!  he is 27 in. long.  He's got a big 'ol head, in the 90th percentile!!  poor dude!  but his height and weight were in the 50th, so hopefully soon his body will catch up with his head.

Vivian is 30 lbs and around 35 1/4" tall.  She is still small for height and weight, but she follows her own curve so we are not worried.  They checked her ears and eyes this time and she did wonderful!

I just can't believe how fast time flies.  I can still remember when Viv was Landen's age, all the things she was just learning to do like he is now.  Now she is so independent.  She does pretty much EVERYTHING on her own...dresses herself, puts dishes in the sink, buckles her seatbelt and closes the van door.  I'm so proud of her and so look forward to all that is to come and yet i feel a pull at my heartstrings knowing my baby is going to grow into an acutal ADULT!!  I wonder all the time what she's going to be like, who will she meet, what kind of things will she be into...then i stop myself because I just want to enjoy NOW.  

The even harder part is watching Landen grow, knowing this is it for us.  Me and Chris both agreed we are happy with two, and I honestly don't want to have another baby, but it still doesn't make it any easier to watch him growing so fast.  I find myself stalling on things that Viv was doing by now.  Like feeding him solids regulary, having him sleep in his own room...I want him near me as a baby as long as possible!!  I love to hold him close while he hold my finger with his tiny hand and look into my eyes while I feed him his bottle.  On the other hand it's just amazing to watch him grow and learn, and I can't wait to see him as an older child, walking, talking, what his personality will be like....

Being a mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I never know so many emotions went with it.  and you feel them all at the same time sometimes!  

No matter where I am or how fast they grow, they will always be my babies.

Baby steps

In so many ways I can't believe it's already been 5 months since I had Landen, and in others it doesn't seem like that much time has past.  If ya think about it, 5 months on this earth is not long at all!!  At almost 5 months he is already doing lots!!  He's starting to babble...he says things like "mmmmmmm" and "babababa"   SO CUTE!!  he also loves to grab his toes and look at this hands.  Here is something else he just did yesterday...

granted he had a pillow under him...but he still did it!!

he's just growing by leaps and bounds...this is one of the best things about motherhood.  You never know what to expect next and its just awesome to watch them grow and learn.

I just love this little guy!!